Duke Lion (dripster) wrote,
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A Sad Remembrence on Sorrow's End...

I don't know what to feel right now. Inadequacy seems to come to mind, but that's not quite right, but the only thing I can come up with right now. I'm sure that anybody who has me as a friend here on LJ is probably shocked to see me writing anything. I've become somewhat of a recluse from this thing for quite some time. I'm just awake right now, at 2 in the morning, with nothing much to say... Except that I don't know what to do... I've done everything [not necessarily everything that I could do, but everything that I am able to do, given my nature], yet it seems to be not enough. I can't help what other's may say... I can only interpret what they might mean... not for my own sake though... for I could care less of such things. What makes us who we are?... Is it how we compare to the views that others hold of our peers?... Or is it the views that others hold of us?... Or is it the views that we hold of ourselves?... I am inclined to hold the latter stance, though I can empathize with those who take the middle stance. I feel it arrogant to say that I only care about what I think of myself, as it seems to me to be something that someone would say to try to raise himself or herself above the rest. I, in fact, do listen to what others say about me, and try to justify to myself ways to be better because of it. I find great trouble, however, in comparing myself to the views that others have of other individuals... It is impossible to compare one's own internal self-worth to the value of another being set forth by yet another being... This all makes sense in my head... perhaps because of my slightly drunken state, but it is my stance.
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OMG where have you been??
I've been around. heh.
Hey-I haven't in a long while, but I checked in on your journal today and I just wanted to say that, well, that I don't know what's going on in your life, but I'm sorry that someone has made you feel that way. I hope things are better now. Hope you're enjoying your summer.
Teresa M.
I don't know you, but I wanted to inform you that I added you. Sorry you are feeling down and I hope things get better.
Hi really sorry to bother you but i am josh, i am in the band estrela.

We did a search on people interested in Glassjaw, because they are good band and we figured that if you liked them and werent busy you could check us out and maybe you would like us too. We just released a new EP you can order online. We are really giving our all with this band so the littleist bit helps out a lot.

you can listen here
www.purevolume.com/estrela

official site
www.estrelarock.com

we also have a new music video here
www.estrelarock.com/estrela-saturnine.wmv



thanks a lot, i would also appreciate if you would tell me what you thought.
Josh
aim-the7thstring

Thanks again. If you are bothered at all by this just delete this message really sorry to disturb you.
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