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Sponteaneus Update [22 Jan 2005|02:34am]
[ mood | drunk ]

Surprise... I'm updating... Don't know why... Should be sleeping with Sarah upstairs... but I'm not... IM me if you want. LucidSpoon on AIM.

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A Sad Remembrence on Sorrow's End... [06 May 2004|02:19am]
[ mood | indescribable ]

I don't know what to feel right now. Inadequacy seems to come to mind, but that's not quite right, but the only thing I can come up with right now. I'm sure that anybody who has me as a friend here on LJ is probably shocked to see me writing anything. I've become somewhat of a recluse from this thing for quite some time. I'm just awake right now, at 2 in the morning, with nothing much to say... Except that I don't know what to do... I've done everything [not necessarily everything that I could do, but everything that I am able to do, given my nature], yet it seems to be not enough. I can't help what other's may say... I can only interpret what they might mean... not for my own sake though... for I could care less of such things. What makes us who we are?... Is it how we compare to the views that others hold of our peers?... Or is it the views that others hold of us?... Or is it the views that we hold of ourselves?... I am inclined to hold the latter stance, though I can empathize with those who take the middle stance. I feel it arrogant to say that I only care about what I think of myself, as it seems to me to be something that someone would say to try to raise himself or herself above the rest. I, in fact, do listen to what others say about me, and try to justify to myself ways to be better because of it. I find great trouble, however, in comparing myself to the views that others have of other individuals... It is impossible to compare one's own internal self-worth to the value of another being set forth by yet another being... This all makes sense in my head... perhaps because of my slightly drunken state, but it is my stance.

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[25 Dec 2003|12:25am]
I'm bored, and I feel the need to post these lyrics from the new Blink 182 song "I Miss You".

"Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
the shadow in the background of the morgue
the unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
we can live like Jack and Sally if we want
where you can always find me
we'll have Halloween on Christmas
and in the night we'll wish this never ends
we'll wish this never ends"

Once my grandma's alzheimers sets into the later stages, I'm gonna convince her that my name's Jack and Sarah's name's Sally and that we have Halloween on Christmas. It'll be joyous family times.
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Please don't let this happen... [13 Nov 2003|03:49pm]
[ mood | sad ]

I guess I only used to write in this thing to take my mind off my own thoughts, and I haven't wrote anything in quite some time because I haven't had any bad thoughts to get rid of until now. Shit's so fucked up. This is much more real that my own thoughts ever were. Please don't let her die.

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[11 May 2003|09:36pm]
[ mood | excited ]

I may have found a computer for $150. =D I miss all my mp3s. heh. As for other purchases, I ordered a $130 MIDI pedal for my V-AMP 2. I'm also having the guy at Guitar Center call me if they ever get a used LTD Viper 301 in since they aren't a licensed LTD dealership.

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[23 Apr 2003|03:56pm]
[ mood | bored ]

If anybody's gonna be in Chicago this Saturday, let me know, cause dat's where I'm gonna be.

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[17 Apr 2003|08:07pm]
[ mood | blah ]

It's been a year and a half... I'm ok without her... But it hurts so bad to think of her with another. I know that it's me being selfish, but it still hurts. But I'll get over it.

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[09 Apr 2003|09:00pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Finally got this thing I recorded over Spring Break on the net. Here's the links: "Metal/Punk Song" - Download - Lo-Fi Play - Hi-Fi Play. I was able to get pretty good drums even with just my BR-532. I was impressed by it.

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[07 Apr 2003|09:33am]
[ mood | amused ]

Last night/this morning was amazing. Who knew that I could turn a virgin into a nympho?!? hehe. It's like, "Damn girl! Let me catch my breath!" heheh.

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[01 Apr 2003|10:51am]
[ mood | happy ]

I think she gets more beautiful everytime I see her. Her smiling face in the morning is absolutely amazing. :)

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[31 Mar 2003|12:20pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Finally got my take-home exam for Econ turned in. The one that I should have been spending all break working on, but didn't. Did pretty much all of it in like 5 hours last night. I'm such a procrastinater. hehe.

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My night in chronological order... [30 Mar 2003|01:33am]
[ mood | drained ]

1) Went to Terre Haute.
2) Drove around looking for a movie.
3) Went to the mall.
4) Bought a shirt that says "I *heart* YOUR MULLET".
5) Went to Pricilla's.
6) Bought Glow-In-The-Dark body paint.
7) Met Anthony (cool kid) and turned him onto Into the Silence.
8) Gave a girl a first experience of something that she'll never forget.
9) Felt bad about #8.

But she's right. I think most girl's have pain the first time, right?

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Stolen from Phlops. hehe. [27 Mar 2003|09:34pm]
[ mood | amused ]

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[25 Mar 2003|12:42am]
[ mood | aggravated ]

Well, mp3.com is being a bitch, so the song isn't getting uploaded tonight. I'll probably just wait until I get back to school on Monday, since the file is 5.5 megs. But if you're just dying to hear it (and I know you all are), IM me and I can send you a lo-fi version of it that's just over 1 meg.

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[24 Mar 2003|11:47pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Just wrote and recorded a 6 minute song in about 2 hours. lml Once I get done mixing the demo, I'm gonna upload it to mp3.com, and then it should be ready for download in about a week.

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[24 Mar 2003|12:50am]
[ mood | amused ]

It's me and Sarah's wedding! hehe. :-p
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[23 Mar 2003|09:37pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Hope Sarah gets online soon. Been sitting here for an hour trying to entertain myself, but my ADD is kicking in. hehe. Need to figure out when I'm making the trip to see her and bring her back here and how long we're staying where and whatnot. Hope her surgery goes alright tomorrow. I wonder what kind of interesting drugs she'll get. hehehe.

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[23 Mar 2003|01:29am]
[ mood | optimistic ]

Hopefully, it's all for a purpose (and a good one), but if not, it's all enevitable logically anyway. heh. It's a roller coaster ride that I'm not ready to get of yet, so I'm gonna stay buckled in and enjoy the ride. =D

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Best quote ever... [21 Mar 2003|11:22pm]
[ mood | amused ]

"I mean, my piss is my piss, if I'm drinkin' that, it's my piss, if he drinks it, it's somebody else's piss." - Jimmy Urine.

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Spring Break! [21 Mar 2003|09:32pm]
[ mood | optimistic ]

And here I am at my parents' house. :-p hehe. I finally get a room to myself after sharing most of a semester with 3 other guys, and now Sarah's 3 hours away. Tear tear. It's gonna be at least 2 weeks before we get to have that "special night" that we talked about last night. heh.

Anyway, the plan for the week is to re-invent ACT in my own eyes to hopefully save it from extinction. And I'm gonna do a lot of recording. Thousands of dollars worth of musical equipment at my fingertips just begging to be used. heh. I'm interested in seeing what comes of it. And I can't forget to make the trip to go see Sarah on Tuesday. I hope her surgery goes alright.

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[19 Mar 2003|03:21pm]
[ mood | silly ]

Nobody's online, so I'm bored... Listening to the original cast recording of Hedwig and the Angry Inch. lml hehe. Mom might finally get to meet Sarah. heh. We'll probably go over there tonight.

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[13 Mar 2003|07:04pm]
[ mood | creative ]

My DJ toy got here yesterday! unz! unz! unz! unz!
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[12 Mar 2003|09:09am]
[ mood | confused ]

I'm the pimp-daddy mack that gets all the hoes... at least recently for some reason.

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[11 Mar 2003|02:44am]
[ mood | loved ]

Damn you Persinger! Damn you for being right! hehe. At least I'm happy, and I know at least one other person that is too. :)

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[10 Mar 2003|08:05am]
[ mood | lazy ]

I decided to not go to my first class eventhough I'm awake because I would have been like a minute or two late, and I know that the professor would have stopped in the middle of a sentence and been like, "You're late... again," eventhough he said that attendance didn't matter. I'd rather just miss a day completely than have him call me out like that. Yeah. And I'm lazy. :-p

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[09 Mar 2003|02:38am]
[ mood | amused ]

So, I ran into the girl that I made out with on Monday that also turned around and made out with Marley later that night. Ended up spending most of tonight making out with her in various places of the house and her room. And told me that I'm going to her house's informal with her friend who thinks I'm hot (along with several of her other friends apparently), because she already invited Marley, but just as a friend. hehe.

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[08 Mar 2003|03:15pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Everybody on my AIM list has an away message up, and I'm trying to hide from all the retards. It's all sadness.

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[08 Mar 2003|02:27am]
[ mood | not surprised ]

Logz: "Fuck it... I'm staying up..."
Me: "Logz, have you been doing amphetamines?"
Logz: "Maybe..."

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[07 Mar 2003|12:46am]
[ mood | amused ]

Today's fortune cookie: "Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it."

Now, does that mean that you're very successful at failing, if you give up a lot, but don't gain anything from it? hehe

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[06 Mar 2003|02:38am]
[ mood | amused ]

Strange... So, here's the run-down: Monday night, I dance with this girl Sarah. Then we sit for a while and talk, then we stand in the hallway and talk, and finally we stand in another hallway and makeout for a bit. Then, a couple of her friends came and grabbed her and were like "We'll bring her right back!" After a while, I walk around and see her with Marley. No big deal. I hadn't grown deeply attached to her in the half hour that we'd known each other or anything. Tonight, Dave finds pictures that someone took with his camera of Marley making out with the same girl in his bed. hehe. Dave posts them on the net and sends a bunch of people the link. All in good fun of course. hehe. Then, Marley finds out, gets pissed, and makes Dave take them off the net. Just now, I got an e-mail from the chick appologizing left and right for ditching me! hahaha!

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